hush hush darling
I want to kiss you
with my slobbering tongue
lick your soul
burn through your soft hair
with the flame from my belly
hush hush darling
I won’t tell anyone
that
there’s a scared little boy living inside you
he lies
plotting the mysery of his women
he doesn’t like daylight
or
smart girls
they shake his manhood
the wrong way
I saw him
on Tuesday morning
straight after mass
sky was raining like hell
my skirt got wrinkled
and wet
and I smudged my lipstick all over my face
with my index finger
bit my cheek
the hotness of the bite spread to the teeth
so I saw him
that scared little boy living inside you
tearing off posters of those good girls
of the walls
that he built
stone by stone
picked up
every brick from the mud and cleaned it with his spit
the cement went dark red
but not like blood
more like
sweet wine maybe
hush hush darling
I want to kiss you
shoot you in the eyes
that look like droopy almonds
short lashes flutter whenever
I take off
my bra and pink panties
I always go slow
slow mo
boy
you get nervous
getting on the stage wrapped in cotton
shedding skin
hush hush darling
I won’t tell anyone
how you promised
to get me off this island
to the dry land
before you boarded the bus
and I came in your head
about million times
she did too
the other one
that
you can
fuck
like an obedient nun
or a corner whore
each to your own liking
she would
ice skate in the desert
if you’d ask her to
I’ve picked up apples
from the fields
the trees grew strong roots
and gave birth to their meaty babes
full of juice
I baked an apple pie
on this mild afternoon
it’s so good
that it makes men cry
when they smell it
my old dog peed on the carpet again
gotta get it cleaned up
don’t know but I might just cut it
before it rains
before it storms
before I learn
to forget the wickedness of men
like you forget
the dirt
that you cleaned off your shoes
I talk to myself
let me walk the streets of North Dakota
where
I might
not
find you there
didn’t I tell you?
oh, have you forgotten
that
I killed you after the summer wrote its last song
when I walked home alone
so that
no one
would follow me
you called me after that
and I picked up
but never said a word back
the next time
I just
let it
rang
I sliced my apple pie
in 6
uneven pieces
it was still warm
the crust
pushed out pieces of fruits and honeyed liquid
like a mother
pressing her hips to thrust out a child
hush hush darling
hush hush
I said
to the bird
in my heart
