Last Sunset

Have I lived enough
If I haven’t cried a thousand times
If I haven’t hurt till numbing pain
If it hasn’t changed something inside

Have I lived enough,
If I haven’t heard nature’s silence
If I haven’t felt the forest’s mist
the wind, the rain, the sun on my face

Have I lived enough,
If I haven’t felt beautiful
If I haven’t smiled at the world
with a peaceful sigh, in love with myself

Have I lived enough,
If I haven’t doubted love
If I haven’t questioned my worth
If I haven’t rethought my existence and my faith

Have I lived enough
If I was too scared to give
Too scared to look weak
Too scared to want and too scared to take

Have I lived enough
If I haven’t taken the risk
of letting someone love me
and believing in it before it’s too late

Have I lived enough,
If I haven’t seen a sunset
and said to myself in awe
“it would be ok if this was my last day”

#1 of 100 day poetry challenge