Lessons of Winter (i)

Of growing older

C. Duhnne
C. Duhnne
Dec 28, 2018 · 1 min read
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Took a deep breath

Let the darkness sink in
bottom of the pit
disaster child
layers of boredom
layers of guilt
temperamental disillusionment

Love that gets easier and harder
the more self awareness grows.

Parts of me that lusts
after love found
at the bottom of the bottle,
at the back of the bar,
dancing on tables

in the meaningless sheets
of strangers who mirror.

Took a deep breath

Let the calm settle
eye of the storm
calamity love
whispering affirmatives
you are not broken
you are not wrong

Silence that shows
all the ways I glow

Now that I know
I am my own Sun,
now that I know
aloneness that doesn’t come
from faux aloofness.

Took a deep breath

Measured it out
evenly poured shots
trembling hands that felt
the weight of a million worlds
exploding into dust
as self rebuilt

Ashes of lust that knows
sometimes, Love is quiet.

It could be a second
a lifetime, a dream
a beginning
or an end.
Love can be anything.

Took a breath
and began

Living.

C. Duhnne

Written by

C. Duhnne

Just expanding my universe.

Poets Unlimited

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C. Duhnne

Written by

C. Duhnne

Just expanding my universe.

Poets Unlimited

Six Years of poetry-only publishing, PoetsUnlimited was a diverse, engaging and authentic poetry magazine. For most of that time a daily publication, it was always diverse and original, and free-to-read by all.

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