Slay

(this pantoum follows Possession)

Image by akiragiulia (Pixabay)

I can’t concentrate
on my words. I’m so
fixated, this hate
is all that I know.

Is all that I know
stained by you, pigment
on my words? I’m so
angry, indignant.

Angry, indignant,
my heart is jaded,
stained by you — pigment
once bright, now faded.

Once bright, now faded,
mem’ry betrays me.
My heart is jaded —
your love still slays me.

Your love still slays me —
there are reasons why —
mem’ry betrays me.
I wish you would die.

I wish you would die!
I hate you so much!
There are reasons why
I can’t tell you such.

I can’t tell you such
things I feel, you see.
I hate you so much
it overwhelms me.

It overwhelms me,
fills me up until
things I feel, you see,
keep me standing still.

Keep me standing, still
fixated; this hate
fills me up until
I can’t concentrate.