There was a time

From Google, DeviantArt

there was a time I longed to be
there was a time I wished to see
look through with fresh eyes
fighting to keep the deepest ties
there was a time I sought love
there was a time all gleamed from above
even when the heart breaks
it could’ve have been remedied by eating cheesecakes
there was a time I smiled
there was a time I could hold hands for a while
the walk became tough
still my feet carried on within the rough 
there was a time the sun sang
there was a time music made me strong
as I’ve spent decades lurking for perfection
the artist in me refused to acknowledged its attention
there was a time I stated my emotions
now they feel safer in the dark, in oblivion.
there was a time I could look in the mirror
there was a time reflections weren’t plighted by horrors
but here I am, here it is
my soul trapped in this crisis.