Why couldn’t I Love you?

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I wanted to.

Lord knows I wanted to.

You were inspiring
or you could’ve been
had I given you a chance.

But my heart was stuck
in a loop that played
i.n.dependance
on repeat
that drove me
away.

It’s not that you were bad.

God no. You were good
the kindest of kind
the kind that would’ve had me

hook, line and sinker
when I was 16 and imagining
what Love would be like
when I was old.
Well, I got older

— maybe that’s the problem.

The realization that Love
wasn’t everything
that I wanted
or needed
or maybe it was simply
You

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