The undeniable arrogance

Maybe he was scared to let me all the way in
Was it fear of losing his freedom and will
Or maybe it was the fear of manipulation

I gave it my all
But I couldn't get it back
At times I asked meekly
In return I got more arrogance

I slid back into tears
He hated them
He walked away
I begged him, clawed at him to stop
He shrugged me off like an unwanted scrap
He moved on

Each time he came back
While I waited, I lost a bit of myself
I submitted more and more
Hoping the arrogance will go away

I wasn't naive
I was in love
I saw the distant look in his eye
But I believed that love can fix it all

He was too damaged
I wasn't whole myself

With years the friction got worse
I stopped crying
We stopped talking
We stopped caring

Behind all this charade
I still kept waiting
He kept walking farther and farther away

We no longer exist
It hurts sometimes
But I won't trade the peace I have now for scrapes of love