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Biden Will Win

I can’t think about alternatives… for now.

Kristina Callaway
Oct 21 · 4 min read
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I miss my friends. I’ve recently discovered the wonderful world of progressive politics, and if only we were able to hang out right now, we’d have so much to share!

I want to exchange ideas in the no-holds-barred way that’s only possible with in-person discussions. I want to see their faces, read their body language. I want them to laugh at me when I’m so excited at a point I’m making that I’m starting to resemble a boiling teapot.

But we have close relationships with too many people. Just getting our inner circle of friends together can quickly turn into a gathering of 20. This number includes a household of three, with one that’s severely immunocompromised. She’s my best friend, and she hasn’t been able to leave her house all summer. The baseline for her severe asthma barely allows her to breathe. A single breath of air laced with cigarette smoke will make her sick for weeks, and could land her in the hospital. If she gets COVID-19, she will not make it.

There is one other reason that I’m disconnected from my group of friends. They tend to spend a lot of time in video games, hanging out on Discord while playing. I can’t. There’s this weird thing that happens while in a video game — a time vortex of sorts. What feels like about 30 minutes inside the video game will actually be 2 hours of real life time passing. And right now, I don’t feel like I can afford to lose a single moment to the video game time vortex.

All Talk Leads to Politics

Last weekend, my husband and I hopped on Discord for a bit, and joined the gaming channel with our friends. They played, and we hung out, joining in on the discussions, and browsing random stuff on our phones.

All natural conversational tracks lead to politics these days, and that happened with our discussion. It started with hopeful talk about a vaccine. Once it’s out there, we plan to be first in line to receive it, so we can hang out together again. Unless it comes from Trump, of course.

I piped up with “Or Trump’s CDC. He’s appointed people there, and the CDC could be experiencing a lot of pressure to push it through. I’m hoping that the vaccine will become available long enough after Biden appoints new people that we don’t have to worry about that as much.”

“If Biden wins…”

“I think he will. The recent polls are crazy stacked in favor of him — like 12 and 15%!”

“Yeah, but have you seen what Trump’s doing?” It was my best friend speaking. She proceeded to explain all the shenanigans. Trump claiming mail in voting will be fraudulent. Dejoy (the Trump appointee in charge of the post office) taking actions seemingly designed to sabotage it. Trump asking members of a hate group to “stand back and stand by,” and then extending an open-to-all-supporters invitation to join the “Army for Trump”. Leaked plans to have swing state legislatures step in to bypass the popular vote.

I said, “I know, I know how bad it is…”

A countdown to chaos

In some ways, I feel as if I’m living thru the last few weeks of American democracy. Do you feel that way too? Everything seems to be falling apart around us. The institutions that we used to trust are failing, a little at a time, one by one.

I’d love to lose myself in a video game right now. But I can’t. I need to see everything. I need to devour every news story that comes my way. I need to know, to understand.

And because of this, yes, I know all the terrifying steps that Trump has taken to try to ensure that he will stay in power, even if he loses the election. I know Biden and the DNC are preparing lots of defensive strategies. I think (and hope) it will work, but I also know that defense is more difficult to play than offense. To play defense, you need to prepare for every possible strategy your opponent might use. To play offense, you need to find just one strategy for which your opponent has not prepared.

I’ve heard it all. And at present, I choose to ignore it. Each new piece of information along those lines gets locked away behind a safe-wall in my brain. It’s like one of those glass enclosures for fire hoses.

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Except the one in my head says “Break glass in case of Trump.”

Maybe it’s weakness on my part. But I just can’t try to make any plans based on a future in which the President of the United States is attempting to steal the election. Is that even a scenario in which you can carry out carefully laid plans? Or should we all just try to react quickly, to take action, to join in with whatever action is being taken when the time comes?

If it comes down to it, I will break that glass. I will hit the streets with my fellow Americans to protest the end of democracy in our country. But until that happens, I can’t think about it. I have to reserve my resources for worrying about the parts of the future that are currently imaginable to me.

We all view the world through a unique lens.

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Artist, mother, and seeker of unique places and experiences.

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Artist, mother, and seeker of unique places and experiences.

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We all view the world through a unique lens. Politics is in literally everything from our churches to our social organizations to news events and crime to our governments. This is the place to share your view, regardless of your political leanings: all are welcome.

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