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Trust Yourself

Pollinate Sunday Sermon, 4.10.2022

Blessed Sunday my friends. I hope this reflection finds you at peace with yourself, and if you are not I invite your to give yourself a little grace.

Sometimes the universe provides me with a deluge of moments offering me the same lesson. These cumulative moments build into a divine scream of sorts. This past week has provided me with multiple internal and external opportunities to hear the same words over and over — TRUST YOURSELF!

Sometimes I am quietly murmuring this to myself, but this week I have been speaking it aloud to friends and strangers alike. As a matter of fact, I think it is the one piece of encouragement I give more than any other, because it is the one we need the most.

I believe we find ourselves alienated from our own voice primarily because we’ve been taught through generational conditioning to abandon our intuition. We are told by Corporate America that we are in constant need of something external to be happy. We are told by religion that we are imperfect sinners, and that we need an external God to show us how to be human. We are told by institutional education that nothing is valid unless it is made valid by an expert, and that you need an external certificate to become said expert. Even the shear amount of information at our fingertips can steal our power.

Self doubt is now so pervasive we’ve codified our lack of trust in ourselves with a new trendy term: Imposter Syndrome. It’s the excruciating liminal space where you believe you are capable of doing something, or have established the best direction for yourself, but because you haven’t been externally validated, by the (typical) powers that be, you feel as though you are just ‘pretending’ to be the person you know you are deep down inside.

The lack of trust we have in ourselves undermines every aspect of the human lived experience. It makes us obsessively question major and minor decisions alike. It opens the door for gaslighting and stagnation. It keeps us looking outside ourselves for the power we can only find inside ourselves.

When I am caught in one of these cycles I turn to a few trusty tools. I slow down. I limit external information. I listen to my body. Most importantly, I remind myself that every ‘failure’ will have something to offer me, which takes the pressure off of the action, and keeps me in the ultimate power zone — curiosity. It is within this practice that the voice of my universal collaborator appears to tell me ‘I trust you.’

So, when you are helping yourself, or someone else step into their power, just keeping saying, ‘I trust you.’ eventually, enough of the whispers will make a scream.

©Kathryn A. Dickel 2022



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Kathryn Dickel

Kathryn Dickel

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