Abuse Culture Highlight: (W)Academia (Nuts), Violence Upon Black Trans Bodies, and Language Policing
I don’t give a fuck what you call me; cuz you’ll always be wrong. And honestly, it’s not mispoken or unintended misgendering that’s killing me.
Just as with any other discipline, ideology, or theory, I am dismantling the social justice hype.
Abuse culture thrives for very specific reasons and has distinct mechanisms behind it that I’ll discuss eventually. Sigh. Maybe. Hopefully.
See, many people forget or don’t care that I’m nonbinary, genderqueer, intersex, trans, genderfuck, demiboy, femme faggot, androgynous, etc...so many things that are and aren’t male and female and other but the true names have been lost due to colonization.
The thing to remember: the academic response to oppression (social justice) is grounded in reaction.
But we have to address the root.
Why is being misgendered dangerous? As opposed to a simple, brief social dysphoric moment?
Why, when discussing accessibility, does everyone feel the need to only talk about trans ppl without even acknowledging the racialized context of it?
Why is history being denied here? Who benefits by not acknowledging that transness is inherently colonized, and specifically through academic channels?
Why is so much of social justice still about controlling people and forcing them to do things, instead of on actual accessible and realistic solutions?
The truth, as my noetikin, Mx. Rhizome, pointed out in our first conversation, is that our true genders have been lost and distorted and erased already. Especially for us Middle Passage kin. This whole discussion around gender is inextricably racialized and the violence we face is the settler mindset, because gender has been colonized.
That's why the fuck it's dangerous. Pretending like fixing language is the solution to violence is a waste of time.
As a Black queer femme, I am ALWAYS misgendered. My true pronoun doesn't even exist anymore, if it ever did.
But I'm not blaming the ones who had no part in fucking it up. I'm not blaming the traumatized for doing what they can to survive. I'm not going to wait around holding my breath for people to see me.
I fucking exist, and in this colonizers world, I have no fucking expectations or demands.