PSMI — Week 3, project 5 — Immunity Map Worksheet
This week the project was to fill in the Immunity Map Worksheet. A sheet consisting of four sections (Improvement Goal — Actions to achieve my goal; Behaviours that wrk against my goal; Hidden competing commitments — Worry box — Competing commitments; and Big Assumptions) that, through filling it it helps you notice limitations/sabotaging behaviours that you may have that may be holding you back.
The way my sheet came up was like this:
After having a quick conversation with my partner for this activity and sharing some initial feedback I decided to leave it pretty much as it is until the session on Friday, where I shared my map and was lucky enough to have feedback from pretty much everyone in the sub-group.
The initial reflections that I shared with the group is how before starting the exercise — but while getting ready for it — I could feel something daunting, as if not wanting to start the exercise. Yet once I got started it seemed easier and it kept rolling as if it was something that had been waiting to be unreeled. I had a slight feeling of an emotional eureka moment as something seemed to click in a way that I had never before seemed to notice. It felt as if the process of writing about myself and then looking at it was helping me detach from my emotional involvement with it. Almost as when you ask a friend for advice when deep inside you know the answer but cannot ask yourself directly (and then are surprised/relieved when your friend tells you what you knew anyway).
The reflections when sharing the observations came in the shape of continuing with the process of further inquire into the assumptions. It was interesting to see how as soon as Susan prompted me to delve deeper and ask myself: “If I make better use of my time then […] and if not then […].” The answer (or at least the ‘conflicting concept’) came straight into my mind: The idea that one is worth as much as one does. In fact, as much as I know that this is a concept that is deeply embedded within me (for the good and for the bad) I know it is also quite common in our society: the idea that it is a person’s productivity what sets their value. A slight variation into the materialistic approach of ‘you are worth what you have’ into (or out of) ‘you are worth what you do’ (or, rather, ‘you are worth how much you do’). This then shifted the topic a bit towards the idea of efficiency and how it relates to this topic: are you worth as much as you do (effort spent) or as much as you get done (even if with little effort)?
This is of course a massive topic that I will continue to explore with time. It not only relates to me personally because of my own perceptions and relationships with effort, work, efficiency and so forth, but also because it is embedded in the relationship between human worth and society/individual productivity that is held in our societies and that is at the core of the values that a society feels culturally legitimate to pursue.