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I’m 30. If You’re 29, 28, 27, or 26… Read This
You won’t regret it
It’s late and you are chewing over that thought again.
You’ve been thinking about it for weeks, months — somehow it just won’t leave your mind.
It used to happen to me on my commute back and forth to work. In the lift down to the carpark — I felt the dark cloud come over me. As I unlocked my car, the beep from the locks triggered the train to leave the station.
The thoughts came in carriages.
I pulled onto the motorway and the first arrival of thoughts would hit me, the doors would open and out poured thirty tiny thoughts, all whispers that my life was destined for more, that I was better than this.
It’s like I’d step out of my own body, looking at my life, I was disappointed — life was passing me by. I just existed in the world.
The thoughts would burrow into my mind and make a home there, I couldn’t shake them — I should be doing more, I should be better, I wasn’t doing life properly.
Here’s what I wished I’d known back then.
Your mind wants pain killers but you’re not broken
When you’re here, you want to take the pain away.