From Baby to Toddler Trans Woman!
My brain and body are settling in.
I feel as though I’ve graduated to the next stage in my transition. No longer a baby, but now a toddler trans. While there will still certainly be a lot of screaming, I’ve also gained some of my own mobility, and a limited vocabulary to express my needs.
I’ve been on HRT and progesterone about 8 months, and the beneficial effects of bringing the right hormones into my brain and body are settling in. I’m much calmer, and a lot more comfortable presenting fem and letting Bobbi drive. I came out to work, and fed the algorithm by posting to my friends list on Facebook/Meta. In both cases I felt a stab of anxiety hitting the “Send” button, fearing a strong negative reaction, half my friends unfriending me, and my coworkers shunning me, possibly even losing my job.
But the response has been universally positive. Many people messaged me to congratulate me for my courage¹ and vulnerability. I replied that while as an engineer it affects nothing, as a human working in community with other humans it’s everything. I had started feeling that little stab of dysphoria whenever someone said, “Talk to Bobbi’s deadname, he wrote it” and it was definitely affecting my mood.
I also realized another misconception I had been subconsciously suffering from. In my head I…
