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I Can’t Be a Transgender Woman Because I Don’t Exist

Until six years ago, I didn’t think I did

Emma Holiday
Prism & Pen
4 min readDec 16, 2024

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I don’t exist.

Really, I don’t….according to most people in the world and based on the last election, particularly here in America.

Until six years ago, I didn’t think I existed either.

For over sixty years I believed that I was just a typical male.

Six years ago, I found out I wasn’t.

I found out I was a transgender female.

I entered a world I didn’t believe in and I spent years trying to prove that every professional I saw had diagnosed me wrong. I spent endless hours online and endless sleepless nights trying to prove I wasn’t transgender.

In the end, all I proved was, that I was, in fact, transgender.

I proved it to the greatest transgender skeptic I knew, me.

Now I live in a world as ignorant as I was.

In their world, I don’t exist.

For example, I watch the existence of a transgender female athlete discarded on television. I had heard the same logic used many times before. Gender and genitalia are the same. There are only male and female people.

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Emma Holiday
Emma Holiday

Written by Emma Holiday

After decades of denial I finally answered the question “What’s wrong with me?” The answer is “Nothing”. I am transgender and I am OK.

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