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The Transgender Terrors: Learning that I am Transgender
and that it will never go away
In 2018 I felt my world collapse… but it didn’t.
In 2018 I thought about suicide… but I didn’t.
In 2018 I thought my wife was going to leave me… but she didn’t.
In 2018 I felt I was alone in the world… but I wasn’t.
In 2018 I believed that no one would understand… but I was wrong.
In 2018 I found out I was wrong about a lot of things… but I learned.
In 2018 I found out I was transgender.
Six years have passed, and I have come to understand and accept what was confusing and unacceptable a few short years ago. I also learned that being transgender requires so much.
I had to tear apart everything I knew and believed about who I was and start all over again. It was a brutal process but with the help of others, I not only survived but I learned and thrived. I believe I am a better person because of it.
It is a tough experience. Step by step, I shed the heavy emotional weights of guilt, self-hate, fear of discovery, and shame. The process lightened my soul and opened my heart more than I expected. I have met people who have had similar experiences and…
