Insomnia’s Rhapsody
Love by the Moon
I try to sleep because I have to.
My body doesn’t want to. My mind doesn’t want to.
But, listening to what they want results in consequences the next day —
I’ll sleep all day.
My family will worry.
The world of errands and responsibility will operate while I restlessly dream.
The night will return, the world will go back to sleep and I’ll be up.
Up and alone. Awake and unable to handle anything adults should do.
So, I try and sleep.
I wrestle with guilt.
I drown in frustration.
I desperately try to sleep because I have to.
If I don’t —
I could try and find productivity with the moon but what of the sun’s societal demands?
So, I live in the constant cycle of pleasing the sun even though the moon beckons me to play and dance.
I respect the sun.
I love the sun.
The moon and I, though, are kindred. I’ve told her my secrets and shared my pain. I’m comfortable with her and she knows my name.
I try to live by the sun while continuing my rendezvous with the moon.