Resurrecting Faith
Word of the day prompt challenge
Searching for some form of spirituality
I’m told it is all I need.
It’s the only missing piece I can put my finger on,
quite honestly.
Having had faith once before,
I’ve found it more difficult to allow it in again.
No matter how much I beg for it,
I can’t seem to find the willingness.
An ego too inflated to admit it doesn’t know.
A heart too broken to allow the love inside to flow.
Constantly questioning:
How could something have the best interest of me
when my entire life I've been cleaning up tragedies?
I needed this unconditional love 17 years ago
when my parents were emotionally and physically unavailable!
It would have been readily accepted even 12 years ago, at 15
before the drugs were presented to me as problem-solving.
Or before my mother stomped on my faith, mocked me for believing.
Why do you need to get baptized now? I think you can wait.
Trust me all you’ll ever need is family anyway.
I’ve been told I overthink it, analyze it to death.
Got to keep it simple or it will never make sense.
I’m a questioner,
this I cannot help!
I need to know the why, how, and when!
Look how that’s been working out for me..
Maybe I need to take this lesson in acceptance.
Take this leap of blind faith, put the preconceived notions away.
This higher power is of my understanding,
so it is just what I decide it is,
it is whatever I want it to be.
Thank you for reading!!! Thank you Christine Graves for the inspiration from your wonderful Word-A-Day prompts!! I have had this block up for a while and you along with the other editors of Promptly Written always help rid my mind of these!
Again thank you all for reading and for supporting me on this journey! I am forever grateful and blessed for all of you and your encouraging words!
