At Least He Sleeps on Ugly Pillows

Sometimes abuse victims need to dwell on the tiny scraps of justice

Kara Summers
P.S. I Hate You

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Photo by Jenna Christina on Unsplash

“Please ignore the pillows, they are hers,” this was the caption on one of the early selfies he sent me.

Of course, I couldn’t stop staring at the pillows. They were white with pink faded roses. They were pretty, just not what I would have expected to see in the home of a 27-year-old. In fact, they weren’t too dissimilar to some that my granny kept.

But each to their own. I am really not a judgy person, and what would I care about his ex-wife’s home decoration style anyway? As far as I was concerned this was all a thing of the past. Andy* and I were together now, and it would stay that way until we turned 100. There was enough time for us to set up and decorate our own home and that’s all I cared about.

We planned our dream house

“This,” he said, showing me a picture of a tiny room, “this is the only room in the house I was allowed to decorate.” His style was much more aligned with mine. But then that’s not particularly difficult, since I am a nerd.

It all started out as a joke, during the first days that we were together.

“Can you imagine what our house would look like?” He would say, “we’d have Sci-Fi…

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Kara Summers
P.S. I Hate You

Author, Mindset Coach, Feminist, Abuse Survivor, Stronger than ever