How to Feel Less Shitty Being You

Ask the hard questions

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In the distance, a rare fog was rolling over Santa Monica. A nearly new and yet years old notebook rested on my bulky metal desk. Sitting uncomfortably in my matching metal folding chair, I felt desperate enough to finally put pen to paper and start a list of what I had in life.

In a figurative “going through my pockets” sort of moment, I took stock of my life to see where I was in hopes of figuring out where to go.

Take Stock

Nov. 2017 — Los Angeles, California

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What did I have?

1. A degree
   I was about to get my degree from a good university. Granted, it was a degree in something I didn’t want to pursue in life, but still.
2. Spare time
   Living expenses were next to nothing, and therefore I had plenty of spare time (time I was dumping into Netflix, Youtube, and restless sleep).
3. WiFi
   I had access to the whole world thru my laptop and a WiFi connection for the price of one tall iced coffee at my local Starbucks (thank you, Starbucks, for fueling my madness).