December Tarotscopes: The Conductor

The Femmeiverse is letting you know the tides are shifting

Dacia Holliday
PULPMAG
13 min readDec 5, 2019

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// The Conductor by The Collective Tarot

DDear Sweet One,

The Femmeiverse is letting you know the tides of change are shifting in your favor this month, & though it may seem to get harder, you will get the results you’ve been working & waiting for. The Conductor, whom I’ve affectionately renamed the Femme Sea Witch, is gonna make it happen. She’s fresh from the bottom of the ocean where she femmeifests anything & everything seemingly effortlessly. (She’s brought this gift to share, so don’t be too shy to use it!) She can also grant you access to her incredible patience & an unfuckablewith attitude. There can be hurricanes & oil spills happening on the surface of the ocean, but none of it phases her. Representing her fortitude & inner stillness. As an ancestral archetype who is showing up to help you get clarity about what to do & how to do it, I recommend talking to her daily, asking her for advice, & becoming acquainted with her signs.

Everything will change cuz you are changing, & it doesn’t matter if you feel ready for what’s coming up next cuz the Femme Sea Witch has already decided that you are. She can see all the layers of who you are cuz she knows who you are gonna be.

The whales underneath her are facing opposite directions to represent how you might see them & assume that they will only swim away from each other, but what you might miss is that they will eventually come back together again. They show us the importance of recognizing how much healing is possible when we honor the possibilities of a bigger picture rather than resign to the confinement of our pain. Don’t worry about doing shit perfectly, just stay open.

Loving you through the storms,

Dacia

ARIES: Five of Bones

Aries, baby, this month is gonna sting a little. You’re gonna have to face a situation head on, & you can’t charm or charge your way out of it. Know that you can call upon the Femme Sea Witch to help you through these challenges, she’s here for exactly this purpose. For example, before a challenging conversation I always pray for Spirit to enter my thoughts to help me process information with more clarity & less of my own projections, & to fill my mouth & guide my words so that I communicate in ways that foster connection & compassion. I also cast a pep talk spell of “I trust you!” to let all the parts of me know that it’s safe to communicate what we want & what we need. Think outside the box & invite your guides & ancestors into your life.

The wisdom of the Femme Sea Witch can help you understand the bigger picture when it comes to the letting go that Five of Bones foretells. Even if it hurts to start again, you can trust the abundance of love, satisfaction, & serendipity to flow into your life through open palms. These blessings may have been knocking at your door, but you’ve been unable to answer cuz your energy was focused elsewhere. Until now.

TAURUS: Seeker of Bottles

This month your job is to take care of yourself. Like, for reals. I know you have a big heart & you can often choose to push yourself beyond your own limits to help others, so now the Femme Sea Witch wants to witness you put this kind of energy & devotion into your own life. The Seeker of Bottles shows a daydreaming babe floating on their back, eyes closed, soft smile planted in their lips, & a message in a bottle in their heartspace. Have you ever tried floating on your back with anything resting on your chest or belly? I was trying to get a cute pic once with a stone resting on my heartspace once, & it was tricky! I had to arch my back to stay afloat, but when I did that, the stone would threaten to roll off one side or the other & get lost, so I would shrug my shoulders & create a dip for the stone to hang out in, & then I would start to sink. I got the shot, but it was a game of balance & timing. I bet the babe on the Seeker of Bottles is free to float unencumbered. That babe is gonna be you.

Boundaries can be hard at first, especially if people in your life aren’t used to you having them. Your job is lovingly & unfailingly put yourself first. You can trust your limits, & the more you do, even when it feels like you’re not doing enough for others, the quicker you will be able to repair & actually rebuild you capacity to be of service to others. Basically, taking care of yourself today ensures you can take care of others in the long run. You might even recover forgotten dreams cuz you’ve been so tired. So many treats await you, sweet bull!

GEMINI: Disaster

Disaster showed up & out to usher you all in this month, but it’s only to make sure your liberation is on course! In a more traditional tarot, the Disaster card is also the Tower, & yesterday while I was hanging out / working with the babies at day job, I watched them build tower after tower with blocks & things, & every single one came down. Sometimes it was because their little hands were too shaky & excited & sometimes it was because the whole thing was built askew. & sometimes they would miraculously use every block & the tower would was stacked over their little heads & wide eyes. While watching this process, I realized that every tower comes down. There are no forever towers, Gemini, no matter how secret or precious.

The really wonderful thing about towers that come down, & what I try to remind the babies, is that you can build it again, this time more stable & sustainable. Maybe it was too small for your new dreams, or the foundation wasn’t solid enough, or there just wasn’t enough supplies because another tower had to come down first. Whatever the tower, they all have a beginning, a purpose, & an ending / new beginning. You are still doing everything right.

CANCER: 8 of Bones

I know you’re tired. I’m tired, too. This month 8 of Bones is showing up to let you know you’re gonna burst through that insulated cocoon that’s been holding you together while everything falls apart. If you’ve noticed a recurring lessons & themes in your life lately, which at times feel like “OMG, this lesson again?!? Did I do something wrong? I thought this was resolved….” You haven’t done anything wrong, that’s just your guides & ancestors making sure you’re feeling solid about your new(er) standards & practices, cuz once you leave your cocoon you’re gonna be relying on this emotional & spiritual muscle memory so you can draw upon it in the future.

These are the last few moments before you burst forth into a world of dreams & the unknown. You have worked so hard to get here, & you’ve been at it so long you almost forgot there is a whole new level to adjust to. Fly high, keep your promises to yourself, & remember you won’t ever be able to fit in that cocoon again, so don’t even try!

LEO: Temperance

Your guides & ancestors have brought you the Temperance card this month to nudge you to pay attention to the signs! They totally believe in your ability to create magic from raw materials, so don’t worry you don’t have the correct ingredients. They want you to remember how powerful you are, how you’ve always been willing to take on challenges others were too intimidated by. Your secret has been to make up your own rules, & that’s what they want you to do now.

Don’t be afraid to be flexible or spontaneous this month, it will serve you well. For as empty as you might feel lately, know that the Femmeiverse can not only fill you up tenfold, but keep that flow of abundance pouring through your life, as long as you stay connected with the spirit world. Pull inspiration from your intuition, dreams, & general messages from the Femmeiverse, then bring it into this world. This is your work this month. It’s gonna help you bring yourself back into balance, especially if you’re currently beholden to linear timelines & logical this & that. You asked for big gifts from Spirit, & Spirit will not fail you. Do your part & the Femmeiverse will take care of the rest!

VIRGO: 10 of Bottles

Your guides & ancestors want you to know that the signs you’ve been noticing urging you to include more souls into your inner circle are correct — do not doubt the power of your community! 10 of Bottles is a sign to expand your community beyond the precious circle you’ve curated, & include elementals like bodies of water & plants, animal friends, spirit guides & ancestors (including your future ancestral self), planets, stars, & other entities you feel connected to. This will help you develop a deep well of resources you can drop your anchor into when you need a boost of support.

Begin trying out how it feels to drop your anchor & not have to pick it back up right away. In the past you might have felt like there weren’t any waters deep enough to hold you, but that isn’t true. You get to release your anchor long enough to actually rest & feel supported, long enough to comb through the tangles & make decisions based on what feels good for you.

Don’t forget that these are opportunities gifted by the Femme Sea Witch, so make sure to honor her with prayers, convos out loud, or offerings. You can commune with her however feels right for you, don’t get stuck with notions of there being a right & wrong way. She just wants to be your friend & guide.

SCORPIO: Eight of Bottles

Surrender is often misunderstood as giving up or helplessness, but it’s not. Surrender is about choosing to trust that a larger source of power & wisdom has your best interests in mind, & that they have a plan in action just for you. One way to surrender is to simply pull your oars in & go with the flow.

Leaving a situation that you’ve invested so much in can be difficult, & then even when you finally accept the facts of your circumstances, it can still feel wrong. 8 of Bottles tells the story of how you used to get your bottles filled by a sweet watering hole, that it used to be brimming with life & possibility, but then you began making compromises that you thought were temporary, & that’s when shit began to change unfavorably.

The only one who is suffering is you, & once you begin to call back your power & make choices for your benefit, it will seem as though others are suffering instead of you. Don’t give your energy to these misconceptions, & try to avoid the power struggle dynamic by reminding yourself it’s ok to choose you, even if that means leaving the situation. The only one you can make sure is happy & safe & cared for is You. Start there. Start here.

SAGITTARIUS: Artist of Feathers

Artist of Feathers is a lil sign that it’s ok to trust your heart song! Your heart song is the joy that lives in your heart & wants to be expressed, let it out into this world, femme! We need it! It is one thing to connect with what your heart is feeling, & it is another level to amplify it, to sing it loud & proud. Since the feathers suit is all about communication, it doesn’t even matter how you express it, just surrender & become a vessel, a channel. There is something beautiful that occurs when you are creating, when you lend your spirit to the act of creation & you lose a bit of yourself & feel free in a way that allows you to expand to your full self. It is important for you to do this.

Take your time to fine tune what this song is, but don’t delay once you know it be heart. You don’t have to be perfect, but you must commit to the practice. In fact, you might even be inspired to share stories that are vulnerable or unflattering, trust those inklings! Let your whole self be witnessed with respect & love like never before.

CAPRICORN: Four of Bottles

The Femmeiverse wants you to realize what a blessing it is to center love in all facets of your life. Follow your heart when you feel a tug to slow down & tend to your roots. Tis the season to pull them gently out & witness with love & compassion as things begin to unravel. This is a natural part of finding your balance. Pay attention to the sore places oppressive beliefs have been fucking with you from the inside, go there, & offer up your own sweet tears to soften the ground. Then pull it all out.

This is not a race, & once you start you may never feel “done,” but you’re gonna be ok anyways. This is work that needs to be done in your lifetime & your lineage, & when you’re the first in a long while to do it, all kinds of other feels will surface. Don’t be deterred by this. Keep digging. Keep grieving. Keep softening the soil with your tears. As you take care of this soil you are making sure the seeds you wanna plant will grow & thrive, both for yourself & your lineage. If you ever need help, ask your guides for support. They can bring you what you need. You just gotta stay open & soft, babe.

AQUARIUS: The Moon

The Moon is all about finally receiving what is yours, what has always been yours, & what will always be yours. No matter what the grief told you while you were drowning. Imagine for a moment that you are on the beach, slowly making your way down the shore, daydreaming, maybe collecting shells or leaving prayers, & then all of a sudden there is a ship right in front of you. It has your name on it, & is painted all of your favorite colors. This is where it all begins, love.

It can be scary when something we really want shows up. We often tell ourselves, “That’s nice, but it’s not for me…even if that is my name emblazoned on the side in my favorite glitter…I bet it’s for some other deserving [insert your name here].” But the challenge for you this month (I guess it’s become a challenge now), is to know that that shit is yours! Hop aboard with your snacks, cute outfits, books, crafts, & anything else you will need for this journey, & don’t even worry that this cute ship is stranded on the shore, cuz that Moon that loves you so much is gonna come out & effortlessly lift it back into the water so you can finally be on your merry way. The power of the Moon in this story is to remind you of the power that flows around & through you, making the impossible possible.

PISCES: Artist of Bottles

The Femmeiverse wants you to know that this next cycle of growth is about feeling safe enough to let your heart breathe free. You are like the sweet merbabe on the card, heart on the outside, balancing your emotional & intellectual selves, learning how to be yourself in this new way. The lighthouse in the background acts as your protector, showing you that you are safe & highlighting anything & anyone that approaches you so you can prepare. Part of learning how to allow your heart to be this free is to make sure you’re practiced in the art of safely tucking away your heart & vulnerabilities when necessary. & there will be times when it’s necessary. The good news is that you understand that you don’t need to keep your heart tucked away indefinitely.

This card often shows up after someone goes through a rough time & is newly bringing their heart from out behind walls of steel & concrete that were erected to protect that pulpy beating muscle the size of your fist. The heart can only survive so long in those kinds of conditions before it begins to hunger for salt water & the sound of waves & laughter, & we surrender. You get to experience all the magic of having a heart that resides on the outside. You get to be free.

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