Not Confused, Not Crazy: On Being A Non-Binary Radical Mental Health Advocate

Do we need the DSM and a medical diagnosis to be there to fulfill bureaucratic needs until we have reinvented the world?

LD Green
LD Green
Mar 11, 2020 · 13 min read

But before I do that, you should know something. This DSM document, this tome, this oppressive brick of a book that I have railed against — it almost got something right.

And that shudder of its near miss shook me a bit.

You see, there’s another closet I’m coming out of just this year too. When my book had its cover in the mock-up stage, I saw my old name and winced. My name was wearing a dress. Not me. When I want to shine, I want a bowtie and a vest. Why would I put that wrong name on something I had worked so hard on? No, that’s not right. I thought. Not anymore, and not ever again.

I don’t want to be classified as having a mental health disorder at all (because all of them are bogus), and now I’m saddled with two.

My diagnosis of “bipolar disorder,” in my opinion, is both a sensitivity towards and reaction to traumas (both personal and systemic) that yields strength, creativity, and passion, and my diagnosis of “gender dysphoria”…well that just makes me fabulous.

Do we need the DSM and a medical diagnosis to be there to fulfill bureaucratic needs until we have reinvented the world?

After all, this isn’t the only way things can be. In Uruguay the government pays for gender affirming surgery and hormonal treatment.

I wanted to research and share here the entry on my particular “bipolar” diagnosis from the DSM, and feel repulsed, and tell you about it, and then you’d believe me, and I’d make this brilliant point. But I can’t do that. I just tried. I couldn’t do it.

I can’t read the DSM entry that is used by my psychiatrist to dole out the meds that I take. (Because life is hard and I need them as a tool. I don’t know if I’ll ever be fully med-free, and that’s okay.) I want to read the DSM entry to tell you this story properly, but I tremble as I consider opening a web browser with that entry.

Psychiatry says I was born this way, and poor me. And see you next month, like parole. Forever.

“My mind isn’t breaking down, I’m experiencing a spiritual emergence because I have dangerous gifts.” “My mind is part of nature’s neurodiversity.” “My mind is on a shamanic quest.”

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LD Green

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LD Green

LD Green is a non-binary writer and educator. They co-edited We’ve Been Too Patient, are published widely, and teach academic and creative writing. ldgreen.org

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PULP is a multimedia sex, sexuality, and reproductive rights publication celebrating this human coil hurtling through time and space.

LD Green

Written by

LD Green

LD Green is a non-binary writer and educator. They co-edited We’ve Been Too Patient, are published widely, and teach academic and creative writing. ldgreen.org

PULPMAG

PULPMAG

PULP is a multimedia sex, sexuality, and reproductive rights publication celebrating this human coil hurtling through time and space.

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