You Don’t Have To Be Your Abuser’s Keeper
If you want to be angry, you can
You think you have to keep this secret. Somehow, this isn’t your abuser’s shame to carry. It doesn’t even belong to the both of you.
Instead, this guilt is all yours.
You were the victim, the weak one. You were the one who chose him, loved him, stayed by his side, and even reassured him from time to time.
You were the one who believed him when he said this was the only time, the last time, the final-final time…
This sin is yours to keep.
The reason you didn’t leave.
One of the first things people ask is, “Why didn’t you leave?” which, in my view, it’s a stupid question.
What the fuck do they expect one to answer?
Still, as you look at their expectant faces, you come up with lies such as, “It was because of the kids, or because he was sick, or because I was sick, or because we bought the house together, or because it was May and I was waiting for November…”
The list of excuses is endless.
In reality, you didn’t leave because you couldn’t. You couldn’t.
