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Anime Much?

How I Crush On Cartoons…

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This week’s writing prompt was about Anime, and which one(s) I crushed on or wanted to be. Because, let's face it, if you’ve seen any of the “Cracked-Egg Memes” you know all about this. The idea that before we “cracked” and realized we were trans, we spent time in a bit of denial, but our actions, in looking back, make perfect sense…

Who ‘dat?

So, if you don’t know, I am a queer trans-girl (not sure if that lines up but I like that for me). I am AMAB (assigned male at birth), Transgender, and attracted to girls. This influenced (unconsciously) my avatars, characters I played, shows I liked to watch, and stories I liked to read…

Waiter, I’d Like An Order Of Girl Characters Please, Hold The Boys…

Years back as a younger father, I did all the things dads do with their kids including playing games (video with the last batch) and watching cartoons (anime and some others). So with video games, my gamer tag was “Minx” and her avatar was an anime girl. My kids never batted an eye at that. But I loved it because it just felt right for me. And when we played games that weren’t first-person shooters (both generations of kids loved Halo and they loved picking on their dad, I was the “bunny” in more than a few free-for-all matches (where my kids would team up and hunt me down, very gratifying to see them so successful at it…lol. Multiplayers like DC Heroes I would always play girl supers if I could (and I did have a crush on Super-Girl and Harley Quinn for ages, and I may have had a crush on a certain MLP named Cadence as well…lol)

Showtime Please…

On the shows I watched, the one I remember was Arpeggio Of Blue Steele; an AI named Kongo who I was attracted to, and another character named Haruna that I wanted to be. And that was interesting because the storyline was about these AI Computers that ran some powerful ships that controlled the shipping lanes on Earth, and they developed human-like avatars so they could think like humans and improve their tactics. But it also made them respond to emotions and Haruna learned about friendship (and she had pigtails and I love pigtails!!!) And she was a bit like Hatsune Miku (who I also loved — blue tails and she could sing! I have her Vocaloid program so you may be hearing some music by her at some point here!)

Disney Princesses Too?

Okay, just one — Elsa. Mainly I like that she is strong and can stand on her own. Qualities that I admire for myself, so she was another one that I would have loved to be. And I loved her story (no spoilers here…lol!) and that she stayed true to herself…

Book Characters

Well, again, strong female leads attracted me. My current “beau” is a character from the Ender’s Game series (Orson Scott Card) named Jane. She was an AI computer program that helped Ender in the later books and eventually ended up in a “human host” body so that she could experience the world as a living being. She is intelligent, caring, loyal, strong, and snarky; all the characteristics I admire!

Conclusions?

I am attracted to characters who are “off the beaten track”, generally non-humans, or humans who have a spiritual affinity. I used to have crushes but more lately it's just been characters I identify with, ones I would like to be, or admire…so I suppose they are maturing as I am, and that’s a good sign too…

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QueelyTrans is a publication for stories from writers who are trans/non-binary with an extra flavor of queer. Trans doesn’t equal straight and we are so far from it, we’re getting delightfully dizzy. Come play! Our voices are too quiet — let’s change that.

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Jenny Starr✨

Jenny Starr✨

A transgender woman learning her way in this beautiful life…queer, curious, thoughtful. Top writer in LGBTQ and Poetry.

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