“Do you ever feel like, when you’re enjoying something, you begin to worry about the moment when you’re not going to enjoy it anymore?”
“Sometimes I even worry about not enjoying something before I enjoy it.”
“Yeah, I get that.”
She looks down at her bowl as she swirls the noodles around with her chopsticks.
“Why do you think that is?”
“Well, I guess I’ve been here before. Take dating for example. I know it’ll be fun. I’ve had good times. But it always seems to follow this cycle, doesn’t it?”
“Where it doesn’t work out?”
“Or you no longer enjoy it. So even though I’m looking forward to dating again, I’m also wary of eventually.”
“I feel that way about school. I’m excited for my new classes this semester, but I also know that a month in I’ll think it sucks.”
I take a sip of water and lean back in my chair.
“Sometimes I think I spend too much time worrying about how things fall apart.”
“Yeah. Me too.”
As if skepticism creates a self-fulfilling prophecy.
But it creates something else too — a sense of urgency to hold on to the good parts.
To stretch joy and happiness, and mold them to the cracks in time.
Ramen: Spicy Garlic Ramen with an egg from Hide-Chan in Midtown East. Tasty broth with just the right amount of kick. Choose wavy or straight noodles, and firmness level. 248 52nd Street, New York, NY 10022.