We’re Here

I saw it. The single tear that you wiped away as we walked to the bathroom. I didn’t mean to see it and I looked away to avoid seeing more. Nobody likes being watched while they cry. I totally understand that tear. In that moment, I was transported back to that morning where I stood in my shower and cried. Every day, in every class it’s a reminder of how much I don’t know and how far I still must go. Then I start thinking how things will just get harder and busier. How could I ever learn all of this in a year? How could I ever have thought this was a good idea. Then I dried off and went to class.

It’s not just about being able to do the work. It’s also about being OK with feeling overwhelmed and afraid and then being able to move on. The strength to persevere cannot come from just within. It is a strength we must learn to draw from each other as well. Like one defiant organism that plows forward no matter what. I sense some of the strength in all of us and it helps me get out to the shower and go to class knowing that if I need help, someone will be there for me.

The next day you missed class, just coulnd’t get out of the shower I suppose and I this notion popped into my head. I just want to say to you, to me, to anyone else in the program that feels the cracks starting to form. I am here if you need help. We are here if you need help. Nobody can do this program alone and nobody should have to. When you’re feeling down and overwhelmed, please reach out. We are all in this together and while there are some situations where we are competing, most of the time we are a team. Bound by the fear and excitement, failure and success, smiles and tears.