Is it worth it??
A young man’s dilemma
Until I was 12, I thought I was special. I was the number-one-ranked student in my class.
I had to move because of my dad’s transfer. I went to boarding school for the next 5 years.
It turns out I was nothing special. A plain-old average guy.
The competition there taught me that I was a big fish in a small pond until then. Now, I am in the ocean, and I am considered too small to even be noticed.
I graduated with a degree in Bachelor of Technology.
From a background that has nothing to do with where I am working now.
What am I doing? I don’t know.
Where am I headed? I don’t know.
All I understand is that the path I have been on for the last three years is not mine. I am going with the flow of life.
If I stay on the same course, I will never find out who I am.
What’s my purpose? Is it the same old life of running towards a destination that never seems to come any closer? I don’t know.
Good things take time, they say. How long? I don’t know that either.
Can you believe that in 24 years, I still can not give you a confident answer if you ask who I am? Ridiculous.
My aspirations seem too far away. Dreams seemed to be slipping out of my arms as the days go by.
I am afraid…
