Resolving My Cognitive Dissonance

An important part of the healing process

Sandy Maximus
Read or Die!

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I feel like a phony.

My thoughts and actions often align with my values and beliefs. With age, I am allowing my authentic self to be front and center.

However, processing the diagnosis of early-stage breast (pre) cancer has thrown me for a loop, at so many different levels.

It takes time to process all the news and information. Regardless of the type or stage, the C-word hits you hard. Its doom-and-gloom becomes a reality as evidenced by how people react to the news differently.

I did not want any attention, but my initial instinct was to inform my family and close friends. As I understood the steps in the process, I decided to keep it low-key with my surgery. Two weeks of recovery seemed doable.

In the past, I’ve been part of meal trains and have done what I could to support and help my friends. I didn’t want a meal train simply because I didn’t want people dropping off food that would not be consumed, and I hate wasting food.

I am comfortable with my close circle asking for the kind of help I need. After my surgery, my friends dropped off food almost daily. When they asked how they could help, I asked them to spend some time with me and they did. I am blessed that…

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Sandy Maximus
Read or Die!

An academic, a mother, and a wanna-be writer in (pre) cancer treatment with interests from travel to tennis, personal stories, and life lessons.