What To Do When?: My mental health.

Patsy Starke
Red Rose
Published in
3 min readApr 15, 2024

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So, my dog, Jimmy died April 6th, 2024. My surviving two dogs developed severe Gastroenteritis and for several days, had continuous diarrhea. On March 30th, 2024, I had to go to ER, where I learned I had A UTI (Urinary Tract Infection), Strong ABT (antibiotic therapy) effective. To top everything off this past week, I Lost my Job April 11th, 2024. Can you tell I’m a Registered Nurse? I work in Hospice, have for over 20 years. I suffer from, “Chronic and severe major depression,” more painful than any physical Illness I’ve ever had. I have had this condition since birth, I’m sure. I cannot remember any time in my life feeling any different, Often times in my life, I have found some reprieve. I have found some peace in my profession and helping others through terminal illness and end of life. This has been my saving grace. when I was younger and to my mother’s dismay, I brought home many stray dogs, cats and frogs. The paradox is, this happens without intention. Without seeking, my spirit has survived throughout my 65 years on this earth. Giving of myself, I have been given a life of survival and purpose. Through my own suffering and reaching out to others who are suffering has given me a sense of wholeness. The honest part of this is, I know I would help my fellow humans without any reward. It’s how I am made, my gift from God.

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Patsy Starke
Red Rose

Registered Nurse, Transgender Woman In a lifelong transition, Parent, Grandparent, Normal every day run of the mill person, realizing my place here.