Dreadful Childhood
Let me forget my childhood — -Please,
I am confounded by my childhood imagination
I hate my mischief’s behavior
I am embarrassed by my worthless ambitions,
I am ashamed of my useless hopes!
Let me forget my childhood — -Please,
Let my childhood’s memories be repressed
They’re nothing but a mortification,
My reward for impractical desires and struggles
They’re nothing but innominate excruciation,
Let me forget my childhood — -Please,
How much I depended on my gimcrack wishes
I decorated my dream world of a good life
How much I designed the incoherent, obscure curriculum
I idealized in my fantasies of a good life,
Let me forget my childhood — -Please!
Don’t ask me to stop accusing my childhood’s fiction
Let me say this — -I regret it
That Tale of my imagination
Let me accept this — -I should reset it,
Let me forget my childhood — -Please!
Let me say that I can live today
I am a loser but not my life
That desires to fulfill, that wishes to accomplish
I concluded I have a futile fondness for being alive.
Let me forget my childhood — -Please!
Aaska Ejaz, 2019
