Old Regrets
A life of crippled measures
I don’t regret passing out on crappy whisky
or playing the whore
while fumbling over silver dollar nipples.
Life’s simple pleasures
and crippled measures
were poked into me long
before I knew who I was
and the man I would be.
My life has been a constant dialogue
of microwave ready prayers and bed
squeaking lies.
Each falsehood became my heroin,
like old black tar burned and
marked between my toes.
I shot out, crashing
fast and high and hard,
but I wanted,
needed
each syllable to shred truths,
mangle dreams and
cripple hopes.
Tearing holes into the sides
of their soul and taking
shit was my reward.
I enjoyed feeding their
pain and watering their
humiliation.