Meeting Mother Ayahuasca — Pre Journey Insight
Take this as you will, I’m not trying to make anyone believe in anything they maybe don’t already but I’d just like to share this experience with you before I share my meeting of Mother Ayahuasca :)
A week or two before setting off to Peru, I was lying in bed one night worrying about what I was going to experience when working with Ayahuasca. I was apprehensive of my whole trip as I’d never travelled on my own before and had previously had negative experiences with flying, so 20 hours of travelling, alone, to a country where I had no idea how to speak the language, to drink this powerful medicine… manifested a lot of fear within me. Especially since I had a fear of losing my mind.
So yeah, I was lying in bed one night, terrified and was unable to sleep.
Then all of a sudden, I passively dropped into a meditative state where I received a message from a female feeling presence which simply stated ‘your granddad will be with you’ then was instantly snapped out of this state, and was obviously confused as to what had just happened.
Although I was confused I just played it off as a voice in my head thinking to myself and thought maybe It meant a dead great grandparent would be watching over me, as all four of my grandparents are still alive. I wrote the message down in the front of a journal I was taking on my trip, thinking nothing much else of it and forgot about it.
Fast-forward to my journey, I didn’t worry and had no fear about any aspect of the journey and enjoyed myself the whole way, I got to Iquitos where I instantly met 2 English speaking people who I spent my time with before my retreat (one ended up actually being a resident at the centre I was going to attend — Hi Tyler!!! hahaha).
The night before I got picked up to go to my retreat I was sat in my hotel smoking a mapacho when I noticed a man also sat by himself smoking. Usually I keep myself to myself, however something inside of me told me go over and speak to him, it turned out he was also English and was attending the same retreat with me in the morning! We were fellow pasajeros. We instantly bonded and were sharing deep and personal information about our lives straight away…stuff we’d never told anyone else. There seemed to be some instant connection which we both agreed and couldn’t understand why as we both usually never open up to others, but did instantly with each other.
Anyway, we bonded instantly and were extremely close throughout the retreat.
After a few days of our retreat it occurred to me why I felt the connection to him, I felt like I knew him, he reminded me of someone but I couldn’t quite pin point who. I told him and he said the same, He doesn’t know why but it felt like he’s known me his whole life…and same for me.
A week or two into the retreat it then occurred to me, I know exactly who he reminded me of.. it was my grandad Brian! That’s why I felt so close to him and could open up to him, he reminded me so much of my granddad, it made sense now. I told him and he laughed and said that he’s felt paternal over me the whole time, it all made sense as to why we connected so easily and so deeply. He literally has the same characteristics, personality, sense of humour, quick wit and even similar physical appearances. I couldn’t believe it.
It then wasn’t until near the end of retreat, I was walking back to my tambo behind him, laughing and joking on as we did, when it suddenly dawned on me. He is also called Brian! This then sparked the long forgotten memory of the experience I had when lying in bed weeks before coming here. ‘Your Grandad will be with you’! It didn’t mean my actual grandad, or the spirit of another. But Brian! Who is exactly the same as my Grandad in personality, similar in looks, and is also called Brian! It was as if my actual Grandad was with me, in person. There’s no rational explanation, but it happened. I received a message telling me my granddad will be with me, and sure enough it was actually as if my actual granddad was there in the Peruvian amazon jungle with me, drinking the plant medicine Ayahuasca.
Take it as you will, but I literally experienced it, I’ve always believed in there being something more out there, and people receiving messages and insights etc., but I’d never experienced anything personally. This confirmed it for me! I’d received an insight, I don’t know where from or how, but I had! And now there is no denying for me! I don’t need to understand it rationally, because there’s so much more out there than can be rationally understood or proved, but I’ve experienced.
Anyway now I’ve shared that, it’s time for some experiences with Mother Ayahuasca!
Much love
JBH
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