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I Reset My Brain with Magic Mushrooms
How microdosing psilocybin made me feel like a teenager again
If someone said you could take a simple drug that in five hour’s time would not only reset your brain, erasing years of depressive and anxious feelings, but also generally lift your mood, seemingly permanently, would you do it?
I did.
I suffered from anxiety and resultant depression on and off for years, ever since childhood. I have been on SSRIs twice, with limited results and plenty of side effects. I found that while I could get out of bed in the morning, my sleep was disrupted, my cognition was generally lower, and I had the dreaded sexual side effects.
For me, 2016 was a terrible year. I was in a constant state of anxiety, panic, and depression. I was isolating myself. I was at my lowest ebb. I thought a lot about who I would leave my dog to if I were to die.
I decided that I would seek therapy. Therapy really helped — I would leave sessions, after crying my ass off, feeling great! I would text my best friend, “I love therapy!”
Therapy wasn’t the entire answer. I was still quick to anger, and I often felt very low on weekends or when any small disappointment or dispute happened. I needed something more.
