The Victim of Suicide

I have never thought I would have the courage to open the laptop writing about the true story of my brother who had been suffering from the social isolation and loneliness, life of failure, social anxiety, and extreme tiredness. I can’t be certain how far I can describe what happened to him, but his story should be heard, by this way, he can help those who have been experiencing what he had been through.

My brother had been suffering from social isolation and loneliness.

As an introvert, he found it difficult to express his ideas, minds, feeling, and even emotion by nature. He would believe in keeping the existing messes and problems in the head alone rather than sharing and asking for help from family, friends, or any individuals. Everyone’s life is hard and tough, and life may hit you to the point that made you seriously speechless. As the realm of life, there have been some alternatives you may choose to free your mind from certain cruelty, then let your soul travel to the space of the universe. Some particular individuals may choose to go an adventure, take a flight, grab some beer and have some talk, but my brother introvert type, he decided to keep the messes hidden in his overwhelming minds and to isolate himself from others.

My brother had been suffering from a life of failure.

“You’re not as good as you think you are” is an ordinary sentence, yet yield huge impact on a person’spoint of view regarding his own life. The power of these words may make people diving deep in their own thoughts and remind them of all the failure that they have done so far. My brother childhood was full of fun and hope as other young teenagers at a similar age. When we’re growing up; our thoughts, our beliefs, our dreams, and our passions, are growing old. We’re no longer as passionate as we were young. Maybe it’s because we have been demotivated bit by bit by unstoppable problems approaching us. The rapid failures happening consistently may leave us questioning our worth, our achievement, and our value. It’s true that we have the capability to bouncing back every time we fail, yet how many time do we have to fail to be exact. Five times? Ten times? Or more?? Anyone can tell?

My brother had been suffering from social anxiety and extreme tiredness.

Compared his way of life to other people in the same age, he could see the undeniable error. The social isolation had given him nothing yet anxiety, stress, and complexity. The life of failure had given him too much experience of how the feeling of failure was like and had left no room for appreciation. It took all of his hopes away. The Pandora’s box story taught us that though evils had appeared one by one from the box when we opened it, ‘hope’ would be there as the last resource for us to fight back against the difficult ways of life. Yet, what if we open the box, then all kinds of evils keep getting out one by one, and we see no hope in the box? It will be so anxious and tired, isn’t it?