I can’t believe this happened — Have you ever wanted to just disappear into the void and have everyone forget that you exist? Alright, maybe that's a bit much, but I definitely would like to crawl into a hole for a bit. I knew I should have called out today, but I thought I would regret…

It's why I can never relax — I wish I could explain all of the things that take place in my life. The only thing I can do is write about it to preserve what little bit of sanity I have left. Shadow In The Corner Not all in my headmedium.com The dark shadows and stranger voices are just the tip of the iceberg. I live…

Trying to keep it together — It is 5:34 pm and I just finished my one-hour meal break. I have one more break before I finish at 8 pm and it’s just 10 minutes. Tonight is my late night and I am miserable. I can’t quite explain how I feel right now. …

Getting you to do your job is hard — Why am I sitting here? Why do I always find myself sitting here staring out into nothing Is there something wrong with me Is there a reason why amongst all the chaos, My mind goes blank Is there a reason why I stand up slowly Only to find myself falling back into my chair with…

It's all in my head — Last night I started a new medication. After a year or two of no medication and deciding that I can do it on my own, I finally realized that I can't. As the symptoms became harder to deal with, I decided to seek out help. So, here I am back on an antipsychotic. I read up on the…

Just don’t let it mold it — Today is a new day and remind myself of that every time I open my eyes. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that yesterday has gone and taken all its problems and disappointments with it. Today is a chance to start a new and leave those old feelings behind. That’s easier…

I’m assuming this is a rant — I tried to write this so many times and it never seemed to come out right. It’s been quite a while since I was able to truly write something. The words seemed to start flowing and then suddenly leave me. A voice in my head says that I shouldn’t put…

Laughing at the most inappropriate times — Have you ever laughed at the most inappropriate time and really couldn’t explain why? It wasn’t like the situation was funny, but your natural reaction was just to laugh. I’ve found myself in that position many times and let me just say that it does not help you to make…

It’s actually not that bad — When you’re living with schizoaffective disorder, there’s more to life than just mood swings and hallucinations. Since bipolar disorder is one-half of the disorder, you also have moments of mania. Compared to all the other symptoms, the manic phase is a sweet release from all of the nonsense that I…