We Had a Good Time Didn’t We?
Poem
let me spend all my good living on you
i have no plans, only characters
survivors of the unanswerable questions of self
addicted to the next bite of fear
let me acquaint you with my nature, shut
like your eyes when you kiss
if the memory develops a space for us
let this be where i feed my body to an impossible day
where i hold you constantly
whether i am there or not
we’re all dreamers, you say
yet i never dream, i remember
in the veiled world, i demand to know
more than dreams of childhood
the disasters and catastrophes
that release us into the world
with a set of instructions, and no desire
so we all go back asking
what am i for?
timidly at first, then bolder
performing in the great darkness
the sustaining ritual of loving oneself.