POETRY
Relapse
I thought the I hate you poems
We’re my healing songs
But they weren’t.
I thought the days and weeks
of crying out for you
would help wash away those
Once intoxicating feelings
That I had
But they didn’t.
I thought things might be different
This time,
I was wrong.
So, Here we are
2yrs later,
You’ve texted me again,
I answered again,
We talked again,
You said you wanted me again,
“ I want you in every way” you said.
I should have asked what every way
Meant to you.
Instead, I said I’m trusting you again,
I don’t know why I’m trusting you again,
I shouldn’t have trusted you again,
You won’t talk to me again,
Apparently, I’m fake again,
Honestly, I’m over it again,
I pray you don’t reach out again,
Pray I don’t see you ever again.
I do wish you the best in every way
You should probably ask what every way
Means to me.
It means I still want you to be great just not
around me.
It means I still wish you all the joy and
happiness just don’t come running to me
every couple of months trying to share it.
It means this was the last time.
I pray it was the last time.
