Journey Day 1

I don’t know about you, but I am thinking all the time. Like constantly thinking, so when I turn on a sermon dvd or music I turn it up loud… it’s not to make an outside statement or to violate sound discretion, it just gets me to “listen” instead of thinking. And it is a relief. To listen.

Let me give you an example: This morning around 4am I was thinking should I do a dietary fasting? Maybe like drinking water and a variety of teas that have healthy herbs. Do more praying, I really don’t pray enough. Martin Luther prayed for three hours at a time… I could do that. Sure. Why not? And move. I’ve got to start moving more. Maybe move and pray… Can I do that for a few hours? (Taking mini breaks throughout, of course.) John the Baptist.. Why did he baptize in the lake? Was it a lake or river? I gotta look that up. I should read Johns story. I don’t think I understand John the Baptists mission. The messenger. I need to see what I have on him. Poor guy. Him being beheaded… he had doubts if what he was doing was right and he ended up beheaded… that’s just so unfair God…? — pause — I really liked that sermon on youtube, I should turn it on and start stretching — (punching the air, raising my arms up and down, punching to the side) …. now its going on 5am…

What do I have to do? So many things I have to do and I wallow in self pity! Ugh! I hate my pitifullness! Gotta wake the boys and wash them up for school. I can’t forget the paperwork…

Constantly thinking, overthinking, restless thinking. Gotta get ready and get my boys ready…