Porn & Me
Is it too late to find a career?
I’d love to be a porn actress. It’s the narcissist in me that makes me want to have performative sex on camera. This is a fairly recent development because I’ve not watched a lot of porn in my life. But, if you take something away from someone, they automatically want it back more than ever before. I am staying on a small island in the Indian Ocean in a micro-country that seems hellbent on depriving its own people of adult entertainment. Therefore, I can’t call up the same websites that power the imaginations of Americans, Canadians or Europeans.
Thanks to a loyal fan base I have been given an opportunity to explore innocuous websites that have content in them that has had a direct effect on my libido. I don’t really need that because I am naturally hypersexual, but it’s fun regardless.
Another symptom of my narcissism is that I only enjoy porn if the woman looks something like me and genuinely appears like she is enjoying herself. They don’t have to look exactly like me, but they have to have the same body type. I’ll wave judgment on hair color, but a skinny woman who is having sex turns me on. It helps if they are not teenagers. I like to see real women (not girls) having sex in front of the camera.
The male actors also make a huge difference. I am a white Jewess with three devoted white gentiles who take care of my every need. Naturally, I want to have sex with well-endowed black guys but there are caveats to that as well. They don’t have to have movie star looks but they have to have nice bodies, look intelligent and have a sense of humor. I don’t get off on porn unless all parties performing look like they are having fun.
I know a man in Oxford, Richard, who is the devil incarnate, but in a really good way. He’s English, white and very well educated. He also has a wicked sense of humor, he’s handsome and has a really great cock and is extremely talented in his use of it. He is the bane of white husbands in the city because he only fucks married women. Naturally, I fall into that category and Richard and I have had sex far too many times to count.
Richard likes to film his exploits and those video clips get passed around to all the husbands and wives in his little club of debauchery. There is one clip that was extremely hot, and it involved Richard and, another friend of mine, Margaret. Margaret is a really cute Australian blonde. In the clip Margaret is sucking Richard’s cock and makes a crucial logistical and timing error.
Richard’s cock is best handled with two hands. Whilst in the midst of giving Richard a fairly lengthy blow job while she kept both hands on his tool, she made the unfortunate error of ‘coming up for air’ at exactly the wrong moment. Richard’s cock erupted and coated her face with copious amounts of spunk. She made a valiant effort to recover and get the remainder in her mouth, but she ended up being ‘face painted’ like I have never seen before.
In the aftermath, both Richard and Margaret burst out laughing as she scooped the cum from her cheek with her finger. Naturally, every other wife Richard was screwing who saw this wanted the same thing to happen to them. That’s the sort of porn I would like to star in. It was really erotic and really fun.
The first porn film I saw was ‘Behind the Green Door’ with Marilyn Chambers. The production values were really dated but she had a body like mine before I got my boob job. That got me really hot. It’s basically one woman servicing a bunch of men. That is exactly the sort of porn movie I would love to star in except I’d like all the male actors to be black and I’d like them to be men I would love to fuck anyway.
I’ve even seen some bondage porn thanks to a very loyal fan, and it turned me on, a lot. That was because I saw the women enjoying it and, naturally, one of the actresses looked a lot like me. I had always thought that was a weird fetish but now I am all on board.
I would far rather share a bottle of wine with Stormy Daniels than with Melania Trump. She seems far more normal than the soon to be ex-First Lady. The kind of women who work in porn seem fairly interesting to me. I can only wonder what the male actors are like, but it seems, from past history, they don’t make good husbands. That’s why I want my porn career to be separate from my marriages.
Unfortunately for the men in my life, these erotic dreams I have, more often than not, turn into reality. Right now, that is impossible because I am nowhere near a place where porn is produced. But once I get back to London, I am going to start making things happen. This goes with one final caveat, if it involves going to California to find a career in porn, you can count me out. I’m an East Coast girl living in London now and I hate L.A.
