I Really Miss Tumblr Porn

…and I bet I’m just one of millions.

Meaghan Ward
Oct 8, 2019 · 3 min read
Photo by Sascha Matuschak on Unsplash

I’m not going to say I was addicted to Tumblr porn back in the day, but I think I probably looked at it on my computer or phone app every day, whether just to check messages, get myself a little turned on, or full out jill off.

I, like millions and millions of other Tumblr users, was devastated when the platform banned pornography last December, and my days honestly haven’t been the same since.

If you look, you can still find some things that slip through their filters and definitely fall into the category of porn, but it’s nothing like it was before.


I had a perfectly curated feed of what I liked that I could get off to any time I wanted.

I had my own Tumblr site where I reblogged the things I loved the most and posted images and videos of myself.

Yes, there are — or at least there were — quite a number of photos and videos of me on Tumblr and I had a following of over twenty thousand people, under a pseudonym, of course.

I wasn’t just interested in looking at the dirty pictures and videos, but also the erotic stories that were on there, stories of what people did to each other and how it made them feel, like the stories I write here, but sometimes much more explicit.

Tumblr is where I first got into sex writing, not just about sex, but also erotica, some of which I published without much fanfare or any marketing, because I was young and dumb and didn’t believe in myself back then.

It’s also the place where I explored and enjoyed my most favorite kink, a kink so kinky I’m still scared to write about it here, but there, I flaunted.

Things have changed, and I really miss the outlet that I used to have on Tumblr.


Now, I’ve been searching out forums and websites devoted to my kink of choice and watching things on XVideos when I need some porn in a pinch, but it’s not the same as it used to be where everything was in one place and felt like it was made just for me.

There is one upside to to losing all the videos and pics of myself that were blocked or removed from Tumblr:

I’m taking more photos and videos of myself lately, and I don’t know about you, but I really get off by watching myself get off.

I’ve curated myself a collection just for me, of me, that has sort of helped replace the dearth of good porn I want to watch.

Not to mention, it’s downright masturbating in front of a camera, even when you’re doing it all by yourself, and I love that feeling of naughtiness, like I’m on the verge of doing something wrong and dirty that gives me so much pleasure.

But I miss the feedback, I’m not going to lie. I miss hearing how much people enjoyed my videos and seeing how many times my photos got reblogged.

Now, I keep all my homemade porn to myself because I am not sure where to put it that won’t be a hassle.

And, I write more.

I’ve been tinkering with a new erotic novel that I’d love to share with you all one day and I think I’ll commit to it for NaNoWriMo, if I don’t get a lot of it done before November.

Either way, I’m finding ways to fill the Tumblr porn void.

What are you doing to fill it?


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