No matter what the dream is made of:
That dream is not to be afraid of!
Well I’ve been thinking and with all that’s been going on with working more hours at Walmart, and my health as it’s improving more and everything else going on; I believe that there is no better time to make some more changes to my life. For most of my life I’ve felt controlled like a robot and told and yet expected to follow and live by the rules of the law and by other companies like Walmart and such; and I’m beyond sick and tired of the living long term effects of following the very- limited limitations linked to their (Walmart) rules!
The rules and environment is very negative impacting on my health and I don’t like how I feel very limited with how much I can grow there. I need to get back out there and find a better job in the school board (as some are being posted as heard from word of mouth from my sister who was told by an old teacher of hers from childhood). So I can be more likely so benefited by a better environment than the one I have to attend till that changes!
And I also need to get more serious on the house searching. I need to get searching on places in the GTA that have roommate ads! I need these changes to come sooner so I gotta get on that! Even though my brain isn’t working in the area of motivation, dedication and inspiration still, I gotta make do with what I got so far!
Its only real if you believe it.
Well I bought a book from Indigo & an fun journal that is about self limiting beliefs! And it’s something I’ve been trying to overcome: the limitations more so brought on and expected of me from Walmart, society; which I’ve been living by my side my whole life and working here at Walmart isn’t benefiting me in any positive way with that nor any other aspect of my life and my recovery!
Here’s to new change and a new chapter coming real soon! I’m going to work on searching for housing options online and tailoring my resume for one of the job ads I have saved on my Indeed account tonight (April 13)
If you work hard, you can achieve it.
From watching almost the whole Netflix series of “Daredevil” it’s got me thinking about the depth to Wilson Fisk. Even though his mindset and way of thinking of making the world a better and safer place isn’t positive nor what is best for that world and society; deep down: he wants someone to love him despite all his wrong doings and his past life; and to not be viewed/seen as a monster and that he is loved and cared for; regardless of the things he has done and will continue to do!
But at some point; people like Wilson Fisk, eventually get a different perspective on things: their life and start changing their life: from the inside out! And you know that’s what I’ve been wanting from my parents for so many years! Put aside all the mistakes I’ve made and no matter the amount for things were bad in their eyes, that deep down they truly love me; and by that I mean the real me including my inner demons because that’s a part of me too!
