I Hear a Symphony … Even Though the Music is Silenced

The Diana Ross and the Supremes song that makes me long for you

Complex and beautifully sad Photo by Kael Bloom on Unsplash

I have grave doubts about writing and posting this. I don’t know if I want to feel this sad, today or ever again.

Just typing it, I’m misty.

Doubly so as I listen to the sweet sounds of Diana Ross and the Supremes sing “I Hear a Symphony.”

Funny how song lyrics can get to you.

You are no longer in my life, but you once were, many years ago. You were then, and remain so now, the love of my life. The once-in-a-lifetime woman who many men never find. I was lucky. Luckier than most.

Opening the door to your beaming face, your beautiful being, was a mix of Christmas, New Years Eve, Hanukkah, July 4th, and our birthdays, all rolled into one. A complex amalgam of treats, a symphony. Every single time.

We’d be off for a hike, or a workout or a stroll in the park or a day trip somewhere cool. And, best of all, time connecting and conversing with you. We “got” each other like two humans never got each other before and never have since.

We could say anything to one another and messages would be received in the way they were transmitted, whole, rich with meaning, delivered as intended, understood. The connection that sprang from our communication, precious.

I remember thinking of you (often) and knowing with absolute certainty that you knew, at that moment, I was thinking of you. It happened over and over and over again, that connection across the earth. Feeling like it was across the universe.

Ah, our travels. New York and DC and Boston, the California coast and our local mountains. Seeing the same things, sharing the same experiences, laughing at the same moments, loving life, loving you. And, you loving me.

And touching you. Coming up behind you in the kitchen while you tried to fix food and cupping the delicious ripe fullness of you, nuzzling your neck, breathing you in. Thrilling to your touch and being thrilled that you loved mine too.

Whenever you’re near, I hear a symphony
A tender melody, pulling me closer, closer to your arms
Then suddenly, ooh, your lips are touching mine
A feeling so divine ’til I leave the past behind
I’m lost in a world made for you and me

Whenever you’re near, I hear a symphony
Play sweet and tenderly, every time your lips meet mine
Now baby, baby you bring much joy within, don’t let this feeling end
Let it go on and on and on

But, now writing this, even all these years later, I’m teary-eyed for us.

Because we are no more.

The last sweet sounds of our “symphony” have faded away. We are silenced, all the notes have been played.

Songstories

Stories About How Songs Shape Our Lives

Michael Burg, MD (AKA Medium Michael Burg)

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Putting “MD” & “um” in Medium | Top Writer x 5 | Writing about lots of stuff | “Doctor Funny” pub owner | “Relationalable” | ER Doc in remission | mburg1955@gma

Songstories

The songs we listen to change us. They shape how we feel and what we do. Let’s share stories of how songs shape our world. Let’s share the experience.

Michael Burg, MD (AKA Medium Michael Burg)

Written by

Putting “MD” & “um” in Medium | Top Writer x 5 | Writing about lots of stuff | “Doctor Funny” pub owner | “Relationalable” | ER Doc in remission | mburg1955@gma

Songstories

The songs we listen to change us. They shape how we feel and what we do. Let’s share stories of how songs shape our world. Let’s share the experience.

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