Old Leaf with New Veins

This is the inaugural post of me improving my life, holding myself accountable, starting regular blogging, streamlining my head, building a writing-habit and chronicling all the above all at once.

Where I am now

I quit my job of three-and-a-half years six months ago because it was depressing me. I loved my workplace, my work and the team, they were the reason I could retain my sanity. All the other factors that entail me keeping my job there were the cause of me quitting. Practicality too. I was working in the travel sector, and I couldn’t see myself in the industry in the future (except if the future held a company that was more technology-based, an app or tech-product that dealt in the industry, rather than hospitality).

So here I am, back home living with my parents, traveled during one of the months, having a little holiday, when I was supposed to get my life back on track starting with earning and moving out.

The problem is I’ve become so numb and comfortable that I’ve lost all motivation.

What I’d like to do

Education was something I felt very strongly about, and living with a cousin who just graduated from high school just brought all those feelings of indignation of what’s wrong with the system and ‘How it should be’ to the front. As I came across things on the internet that dealt with some novel innovation in the classroom or teaching, or educational reforms in a country, I grew more and more interested in contributing to it. Soon I found myself having extreme ideas of integrating technology in education or exploring an alternate form of learning every time I came across something remotely close — almost like a trigger.

I decided I’d work in the Education-technology space next. Practically too, this sector is up for reform and it would potentially only make information-propagation easier. This was a just cause and help in making sure the future of humanity would improve, if done right. Yes, make learning interesting and you have a child that cares.

Problem is — I have no experience with the sector. So I have got to work extra hard at proving myself. Thankfully I can hustle — working in a start-up previously made me no stranger to being a jack-of-all-trades, I can handle operations, sales & marketing, managing customer accounts, negotiating and dealing with vendors and a bit of beginner-accounting. Unfortunately, I also get these bouts of depression that gets numbing and paralyze me from action.

The New Veins

To get myself to do what should be done, I decided to develop some new habits that would hopefully stay constants through my life henceforth, hopefully help in defining who I am.

Habit #1 — Play the guitar every night before bed.

Music has always been a rock that keeps me sane. I fell in love with music through the sound of guitar when I heard an alt-rock band play. Many attempts to play the guitar have failed, but whatever time I played was a time of escape — hopefully I can finally properly learn the guitar while giving myself some safe-place while practicing.

Habit #2 — Writing aka the cause of this pub

Reading is another of my escapes, writing has always been alluring because of this reason — if I could feel so much by reading, I’d also like to share the love by contributing to this art. I’d always written in a journal when I was having a bad day (if anyone came across that book, it’d seem like my life was a depressing sob-story). Soon I’ve tried writing fiction as well, but I never completed more than one or two stories. The problem was that I’d write a scene and go blank after.

There are obvious advantages to writing everyday and forming a habit of it, no harm in giving a shot.

Habit #3 — Get up early and do the crossword

I like puzzles of all kinds, and recently bonded with my uncle over the newspaper crossword. So, good habit of waking up early and keeping in touch with my uncle — two birds down.

Habit #4 — Drinking water

I bought a new water-bottle, that is literally the reason I put this point in. But I do have to keep reminding myself to drink water, I even went to the hospital for dehydration once.

This is what I have in mind. I’d also like to run, but it’s scorching hot where I live now (in the 40s Celsius). So that shall be up once the temperatures go down to the 30s.

Until tomorrow then!