How Do You Get Better When You Think You’re Worthless?
When you have depression it is easy to start feeling bad about yourself
If you have depression or another mental illness, it is easy to fall into the trap of feeling like you are worthless. You may feel like you don’t deserve help, or you don’t deserve to get better. You may feel like God or the Universe is punishing you for your sins, and you deserve the bad things that happen to you.
In many instances, if you have a mental illness for a long period of time, people may say things to you that become the basis of negative self-talk and feelings of worthlessness. Loved ones may make you feel guilty for being sad, disengaged, or having difficulty completing your responsibilities.
This is how I have been feeling lately. It’s partly the reason why I came back to the US from Germany. I have this problem of basing my sense of worth on the opinions of others. So when I felt unwanted by the people closest to me, it made me begin to question everything.
I felt like, if putting my heart and soul into caring for my family all these years wasn’t ‘enough’ for them, then what good am I? Why is my love never enough?
As a mom, I made so many sacrifices of my time, energy and effort for other people. But it wasn’t enough…
