You don’t really want what you think you want

Ramona Feraru
Spirit embodied
Published in
3 min readNov 2, 2023

No, you don’t want that hug…

You don’t want sex…

You don’t want justice…

You don’t want that home..

You don’t want that job…

You don’t want enlightenment…

What you do want is what you believe that having any of these things will make you feel.

What you want is the absence of feeling of lack.

What you want is to feel whole.. content.. complete.. at ease. Home.

And the paradox is that the only thing that stops you from feeling your own wholeness and completeness is the false assumption that it is lacking in the first place. The false idea that your fulfilment will come in the next moment, once you get that thing, or once you get rid of that thing.

Most people don’t realize is that they never want things. They want the FEELINGS that they believe those things will make them feel, OR the feelings they believe those things will spare them from feeling.

You don’t want a fancy car.. Not truly. You want the feeling of THRILL and the sense of VALUE that you think it will bring you. And you think it will spare you from feeling a sense of mediocrity,

You don’t want to be rich… Not truly. You want the feeling of FREEDOM, of ABUNDANCE, WHOLENESS and SAFETY that you think having wealth will bring you. And you also think it will spare you from the feelings of worry, restriction, lack and even.. unworthiness.

You don’t really want a partner… Not truly. What you want is the feeling of LOVE, WARMTH and PLEASURE that you believe having a partner will give you, And you also think it will spare you from feeling loneliness, unlovability and ordinariness.

No matter the thing you think you desire, if you truly look, you will see that what your truly want is the way you think having it will make you feel.

So… Why not choose to feel whole, abundant, free, thrilled and full of love HERE AND NOW? Why not let go of worry and stop focusing on lack Now? Why not find that you are already worthy? That you are already safe and limitless now?

why not take the shortcut to what you truly want? It is already here, you know? Since feeling whole is what you ultimately truly want, look and see, that you already have it.

There is an automatic assumption that

If something is not there

If something is lost

If something is not as you were taught it has to be

If your body is hurt

If some injustice is done,

THEN, you cannot remain at ease.

It is a false assumption.

What you are is neither decreased nor enhanced by any thing or any one.

You wholeness is untouched and self sufficient.

Find this and be happy. And once you do find this you can even go get things in life. But you will not endow them any more with power over your inner state. You will just savour them as beautiful gifts in this play called life. Enjoy!

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Ramona Feraru
Spirit embodied

Exploring all levels of existence, from the transcendental to the human rawness.