Why Do I Like Falling Ill?
I have not been feeling very well for the past two days. I had a temperature, headache, body pain, and cough and have been truly ill.
Barely able to walk, talk, and eat, I have found myself uninterested in most activities. Yet, deep down, I felt happy.
I know it is strange, and I feel the same!
I have explored this feeling, and some of the insights I have gained make up the core of this blog. I am sure there is someone like me out there.
My Inner Child Is So Awake
Whenever I feel sick and vulnerable, I miss my mother and childhood. I have always noticed the attention and care we receive from parents when we are sick, especially from our mother, is second to none. I have a lovely wife who looks after me well when I am ill, making me feel like a child. Deep down, I am still that child seeking attention, sympathy, and love.
No Expectations
As the main breadwinner of the home and have been heavily criticised by family, relatives, and friends for chasing my dreams, I am always under pressure to perform well.
There are always questions, answers, explanations, and further clarifications, as well as trying to convince others and much drama on an ordinary day. However, everything changes when I fall ill.
I love that feeling of being free and others accepting me as who I am, a human being
Time for Self Talk
I am very busy trying to keep up with various tasks on an ordinary day. My wife asks for help with different things if I am working from home. My son also comes to me with various requests that I sometimes cannot avoid, so I get pulled in all directions.
Even if I want to spend some time on my own, it is not very practical.
When I am ill, I can stay in bed for hours, not using my phone or laptop, and just be with myself and my thoughts. Lovely, is it not?
Is It Just Me or You Too?
I know we do not give much thought when we are unwell because we just want to come out of that downtime and feel active again. However, there are people who are always busy and a bit frustrated but make a great effort not to be affected by those frustrations. I think I am one of them, and for people like me, falling ill from time to time is a blessing, not a curse.
Are you one of them?
