Laundry Day
My Initial Views on God
There is a certain dread that comes with doing your laundry. Once to twice a week you must get all your clothes together and wash them. You must do it to live a good cleanly life. One of my friends once said “It is a existential dread that comes from such a simple task.” This is how I first began to think of God and going to church. Something I had to just check off my list. Go to church wash all my sin’s away, come home clean and do it again next Sunday and Wednesday. The cycle went over and over. I first thought of going to church to learn about God as a routine. I grew up in a Christian home learning how to do and say all the right things. I learned how to pray a prayer and sing a song to a God I did not give much other thought to.
When I was in the 4th grade, I began to better understand God as a loving and forgiving God. In North Carolina everybody I knew loved Jesus and went to church. I went to church because my family wanted me to and because I knew it was the right thing to do. My idea of God came from the lifestyle of my family and community. As I began to know God I believed — and still do — that He was an all powerful being who loved me incredibly and cared for me no matter what. I did not think I really had to pay attention to how I was acting or what I was doing, because on Sundays and Wednesdays I would go to church like I was supposed to and anything wrong I did would go away. That view began to change when I realized how God desires a personal relationship with us. John 3:16 says, “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” He made this sacrifice for me and I just disregarded him, but that was about to change. I started having a relationship with God where I desired to obey Him, and I tried my hardest to put that into action.
God is always with me even when I may drift away and stray from Him, He is always there. As Hebrews 13:8 states, “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.” I will change and my relationship with God will change but He will never change. I want to continue this relationship with God, grow even stronger in it, and fall deeper in love with Him. I no longer think of going to church and praying as something to check off my list like doing laundry. It is not something I dread to do to, not just cleanse myself and move on. I cannot wait to see my growth towards God and move away from my old laundry like religion.
