This Month, I Started Writing.

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I’m a sucker for routines. You would think that 5 years of on and off internships and school would kill that habit, but no. It ended up instilling an appreciation for routines, a craving to get one established as soon as possible.

After having moved to a new location for my full time job, I can’t wait to move out of temporary housing and into my new (first!) apartment. I can’t wait to find my new team at work. I can’t wait for the whole ‘settling in’ process to finish. Because I know, that at the end of it all, waiting for me, is my perfect routine. I may also be a very impatient person by nature, but that’s… neither here nor there.

What’s so special about a routine? Easy answer is that there are no surprises. You know just what to expect, what the next upcoming thing is. 6 AM? Gym. 8:30 AM? Work. 7:30 PM? Home. Having a set routine, for me, is having a beautiful comfort zone, which allows me to keep my peace of mind and maintain my ‘inner zen’.

I want to step out of the damn comfort zone.

What’s wrong with having a comfort zone? Nothing wrong I say. You stay safe, your mental peace and sanity are not at risk, your level of happiness remains pretty constant. I’d like to change that anyway. I’d like to figure out what the whole brouhaha about ‘most of the learning happens outside your comfort zone!’ really is. I’ve moved a couple of thousand miles away from home, and I’d like to experience what the world has to offer, in terms of people, experiences, and places.

But habits are tough to break. And one of mine is to not jump into things without researching them or having thought about them hard enough. As a result, this blog has been lying in wait for it’s first post for about a month now. Reasons for not writing a blog are multiple: Is it a good idea to write something publicly, when everyone knows that things on the Internet stay forever? Do I have something worthwhile to write and talk about? Will someone even want to read this? What if my posts are too long? (I think the answer to that last question is a yes).

I know I wanted to write monthly posts wherein I attempt something new every month, one thing led to another and before I knew it, I was googling: ‘get out of comfort zone ideas’. Lo and behold, the first bullet point of the third result on Google states that: “Put your personal work out in the world so that it’s potentially vulnerable for negative comments. A video on YouTube, a piece of writing online — anything that can be complimented or critiqued, which will either boost your confidence or thicken your skin.”

And so, here I am. Here I am, attempting something new every month, something that I haven’t done before, and something that pushes me out of my comfort zone (but not at the risk of physical and mental safety). And I’m choosing to begin that with writing a blog.

Reasons why I feel out of my comfort zone:

  1. I am big on privacy controls. My twitter account is private, and so is everything on my facebook account. This blog is… public. And that makes me very, very nervous.
  2. I hate looking like that one person who is out of his/her element. Blogging is definitely not my thing and me writing this blog puts me at a very real and big risk of looking stupid. I’m taking it anyway.
  3. English is my second language, so I’m bound to make grammatical mistakes, and they are bound to surface in my writing. This leads us back to point # 2 where I look pretty darn imperfect — and this time, I can’t even be blissfully unaware of the fact.
  4. I am liable to speak/write (read often do) stupid things, and my go to method to correct that is to speak/write less. This blog kind of undermines that approach.
  5. Publicly proclaiming that I’m going to try a new thing that pushes me out of my comfort zone every month make me accountable to friends and… random people reading this on the internet. I really want to go back and delete this point because stating that leaves me exposed, but I’ll keep it in anyway.

All in all, I think this is a good start to catapult me quite far out of my personal, comfy space.

So, guys, this month, I started writing and maintaining a blog.


Originally published at thismonthi.wordpress.com on August 19, 2015.