peaceful

I thought maybe I would ask you what to do with this pain
I don’t need it anymore, learned what I needed to know,
chest still tightened, something more to give,
heart not yet quite open, sadness not yet quite spoken,

In this morning quiet before the bustling day begins
the earth spins, ears buzzing, no idea about anything,
heart open to the universe as it is, to my own ignorance,
to myself

A screaming ambulance races through the dawn,
trees rustle outside my window, a car alarms
I can be open all of the time, learn to listen
with ears, eyes, nose, and skin,
feel the leather couch under,
slight cold in my toes,
chest sore from smoking, pursed lips,
nicotine flavor in my mouth and throat

Shhhhhh….

Peaceful, I let myself fall into a deep sleep