Writing about suicide is hurting & healing me in equal measure

Recently, I have been absolutely emotionally exhausted. I can feel my brain on the cusp of creeping into a low-lying depression, and I am deeply aware that this is not the direction I want it to continue. After 35 years on this planet (and much experience), I at least now know not to fight it. In the past, if I was starting to feel low, I would desperately try to ignore it, or I…