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Grieving, Parenting

My Mom Wasn’t Perfect But I Miss Her Anyway

R.I.P. Mama 1/31/57–9/18/20

My mom was abusive, demanding, and mean. She was also funny, creative, and affectionate. This juxtaposition made my tumultuous childhood a landmine.

My emotions have been all over the place since Mama died. I’ve felt incredibly sad, numb, and euphoric (most…




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Toni Tails

Toni Tails

CEO of | Published Author & Illustrator| Body Positive Graphic Artist | Autism Mama | Survivor of Child Sex Abuse | PTSD ADHD Queer Babe | she/her

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